my understanding of it is so off it's almost scary.
4 Ekim 2010 Pazartesi
distortion
i keep touching my body to see if it's still there.
my understanding of it is so off it's almost scary.
my understanding of it is so off it's almost scary.
7 Mart 2010 Pazar
like a snowman with stendhal syndrome in berlin.
yes.
i went to berlin (finally) in january. and i do realise it is march now, i really do. i haven't blogged about this until now cause initially i was, you know, lazy, and not fully accepting of the fact that i am back to a life of responsibility, school and such.
but then, i spilled tea on my laptop and i have been computerless for the past three weeks. do not do it. it causes an extreme amount of pain.so now, having got it back yesterday (fully working, but the writings are all pixelly and for some reason windows is denying to show me thumbnails, other than that we're totally fine compared to waht could've happened) i am completely slumped with the amount of work i have to do and don't know where to begin, hence the blogging.
so yes, berlin. berlin was so cool, both in literal and metaphoical sense. the temperature when i was there varied between -18 and +2, and my stay there consisted so little of touristing and so much of getting lost in the streets with fingers frozen on the camera, trying to capture light at dark, and then leaving the camera home for the nightlife. the whole thing ended with the most unexpected outcome, a relationship re-establised with my body. i guess we really needed that all night dancing to good music.
i went to berlin (finally) in january. and i do realise it is march now, i really do. i haven't blogged about this until now cause initially i was, you know, lazy, and not fully accepting of the fact that i am back to a life of responsibility, school and such.
but then, i spilled tea on my laptop and i have been computerless for the past three weeks. do not do it. it causes an extreme amount of pain.so now, having got it back yesterday (fully working, but the writings are all pixelly and for some reason windows is denying to show me thumbnails, other than that we're totally fine compared to waht could've happened) i am completely slumped with the amount of work i have to do and don't know where to begin, hence the blogging.
so yes, berlin. berlin was so cool, both in literal and metaphoical sense. the temperature when i was there varied between -18 and +2, and my stay there consisted so little of touristing and so much of getting lost in the streets with fingers frozen on the camera, trying to capture light at dark, and then leaving the camera home for the nightlife. the whole thing ended with the most unexpected outcome, a relationship re-establised with my body. i guess we really needed that all night dancing to good music.
9 Ocak 2010 Cumartesi
it runs in the family.
so.
finally, vacation.
it hasn't quite hit me yet. what i got out of it until now is a fairly less dysfuctional sleeping pattern; which is defined by more sleep but waking up abruptly eary in the morning no matter what, and falling asleep at times like saturday night when your gay boyfriends are calling you out.
my room is still a mess, and the stack of books i checked out from the library to form ideas on my future thesis are still piled up on my desk, i haven't gotten around to any projects, but i did start carrying my camera arounda and ended up having a little homemade photoshoot-type thing when i was staying at my cousin's, the night before she left for london. we were both so exhausted, she had a runny nose and i could barely carry the camera but it got me to remember the feeling of it, which is a step, not a big step, but nontheless.
the styling was a combination of hers, mine, and her grandmother's vintage.
some candiderie:
and yours truly.
finally, vacation.
it hasn't quite hit me yet. what i got out of it until now is a fairly less dysfuctional sleeping pattern; which is defined by more sleep but waking up abruptly eary in the morning no matter what, and falling asleep at times like saturday night when your gay boyfriends are calling you out.
my room is still a mess, and the stack of books i checked out from the library to form ideas on my future thesis are still piled up on my desk, i haven't gotten around to any projects, but i did start carrying my camera arounda and ended up having a little homemade photoshoot-type thing when i was staying at my cousin's, the night before she left for london. we were both so exhausted, she had a runny nose and i could barely carry the camera but it got me to remember the feeling of it, which is a step, not a big step, but nontheless.
the styling was a combination of hers, mine, and her grandmother's vintage.
some candiderie:
and yours truly.
27 Kasım 2009 Cuma
i doodled this last week in class, while the teacher was telling a folk story about a woman who witnessed her teacher eat a little boy when she was a kid And when she would give birth as an adult
her children got stolen from her right after she had them, by some unnatural presence that would leave her with a dash of blood on her mouth so she would be accused...
folk stories happen in anthropology classes, and while the whole thing hit a very sensative spot, it was still very pleasent.
23 Kasım 2009 Pazartesi
21 Kasım 2009 Cumartesi
fog.
i'm still slacking off of work, but i managed to go out and buy myself a load of candy and crayons, and do that:
this is what today felt like to me. fog, and peacefulness. i fit into it like a glove that found the right hand. i was listening to zoe keating through the whole process. because legions of cello fit the fog.
this is what today felt like to me. fog, and peacefulness. i fit into it like a glove that found the right hand. i was listening to zoe keating through the whole process. because legions of cello fit the fog.
11 Ekim 2009 Pazar
Kera Leda
the name's Eda Çakmak. i would very much like to go by it,but then i wouldn't be the only one to come up when you google my name, and as a person who believes in te power of google, i wouldn't like that very much.
currently live in, walk around and curse at the traffic in the city of istanbul. can be pretty serious about cheesy stuff. i do photography, and try to do my anthropology readings part time. i believe in fiction. ten of my fingers are attached to my laptop, which is humming uncomfortably at the amount of information given. i obsess about something new every day. i look like this:
currently live in, walk around and curse at the traffic in the city of istanbul. can be pretty serious about cheesy stuff. i do photography, and try to do my anthropology readings part time. i believe in fiction. ten of my fingers are attached to my laptop, which is humming uncomfortably at the amount of information given. i obsess about something new every day. i look like this:
3 Ekim 2009 Cumartesi
22 Eylül 2009 Salı
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this will fil up with amazing stuff. like:
Magdalena Kmiecik, my recently favorite fashion photographer, also love her personal shoots.
Magdalena Kmiecik, my recently favorite fashion photographer, also love her personal shoots.
21 Eylül 2009 Pazartesi
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